Something about me that changed from being in South Korea is that I’ve become more innocent in handling boys and feelings for boys (also I’ve become like a hundred times more arrogant against them, but that’s another story). Anyhow, today I was on the subway train back from Myeongdong where I’d been shopping. I get on the train in the last minute so I’m basically throwing myself onto the train. Then I stand trying to fix my hair in the mirrored vision of me in the window on the door opposite to the one I’m standing by. I all of a sudden notice a very handsome man, around my age, sitting by the door, looking at me. Of course, as all korean men are somewhat shy when it comes to western girls – he turns his longing look away from me.
But for the first minutes of the trainride I notice him trying to descretely look at me, every other second. And then my head starts wishing that the seat next to his seat is the next one to be free,  so I can sit down next to him. And all of a sudden, the train stops and the guy sitting next to the handsome boy leaves his seat. It was basically like a wish come true. I walk over to the seat and I see the handsome boy’s eyes become bigger with anticipation and nervous-ness. Next, when I sit down I realize that I can’t really see him well, sitting on his side because I have to turn a lot to actually see his face. Which wasn’t really part of my plan. The rest part of the trainride we’re both moving nervously, I see him looking over at me every chance he gets and I try to do the same thing without being creepy or awkward. Both of us are also fixing our hair like it’s part of an obsessive compulsive disorder thing we just realized that we both we’re suffering from.
At every moment that his body touched my side or anything, I felt myself go more and more nervous, and I could see him doing the same thing.
Then at the stop before mine I see him dreadfully standing up from his seat to get off. I can’t but think “ah fuck, now all the fun is over”. And basically it was, but still not. Next a bigger man comes to sit next to me, just at the moment where the handsome boy, standing by the door, looks back over his shoulder to look at me. But the fat man is covering our vision of each other.
Then the boy get’s off the train and just in his eyeline there’s a bar on the window of the level to cover his eyes from my sight, so I can just see his body walking past, face turned towards the window, where I’m sitting, trying to look for me.

Then the train drives off and I see him walking down some stairs, just given up looking for me anymore.
That’s it.

K-pop Journalist Job

I’m nowadays a k-pop journalist btw!

Here’s the first article I wrote for Soompi, it was posted on friday, after the days Music Bank.
This is what I do now every friday evening, write a review of the day’s episode of Music Bank. I love it 🙂
Here’s the link for the article;

Jung Yong Hwa vs. Jang Keun Suk

I dreamt a very real-like dream about Jung Yong Hwa and Jang Keun Suk when I was sleeping my day away today.
They seemed to both be trying to catch my attention in it and it was basically making me die trying to choose who to like the most. I’m blaming my dream on yesterday’s events related to Jung Yonghwa. I will write about them very soon. But I basically was the happiest fangirl due to him at Inkigayo yesterday.

Anyhow, back to the dream. I remember that I met Jung Yonghwa somehow by accident in the dream and made plans somehow to meet him up later for a fair/festival thing that was in town. The next time I saw him with Jang Keun Suk and they’re standing just by a car. Jang Keun Suk was looking stunning aswell and making me uncomfortable just being around him. I have memories of talking to them both in the dream but I blacked out the conversations completely. Unfortunantely.
For some reason, I’m next, running to buy lipstick and I know in the back of my head that I need to meet up with both Yonghwa and Keun Suk soon again. Then I’m running up a hill towards where I’m supposed to meet them, and I think for some reason, there’s a stone wall next to me taped full with pictures of me on it. I take a picture of it, cause I’m so astonished, thinking maybe I made the wall myself somehow and didn’t remember it. And somehow I’m aware of being a pretty famous korean socialite person.
I walk past the stone wall and behind me walks a man in his 50’s and starts to throw gasoline onto the wall. I’m turning around wondering why he does this and he says “SM, it’s because if SM Entertainment, but you have to escape” or something of the likes and then he lights the stone wall on fire and I run away through crowds of people up the hill.
When I finally arrive at the top I see two members of 2PM are performing there on a stage. The members are Wooyoung and someone who’s face I can’t see clearly. I try to take a picture with my phone, but someone stops me, saying I have to pay to get a picture of them, so I continue looking for Jang Keun Suk and Jung Yonghwa.

Then I wake up.

The whole theme of the dream was very much alike the one of the k-drama “You’re Beautiful/He’s Handsome” because I was feeling torn between the boys, always filled up with this joy when meeting them and also afraid because for some reason I was also being chased.

Please dreams like this continue. I love having very real-like dreams (just dreams that feel so accurate in the events that happend to me that I actually believe that it’s real life events and not a dream) and dreaming of people that I like (especially k-pop artists, you know, I reaaaally don’t mind that) and actually remembering the dreams. Since my real life memory is so bad, I’m always so happy when having vivid memories of dreams. But it doesn’t happend often enough lately…